“Fuck me Mistress that really hurts.”
Hearing that what does it do to you?
Hearing me cry out how do you feel ?
Does it excite you?
As long as what You do
It’s not injuring, it’s positive.
It’s for my gratification and well being knowing.
I am happy suffering for you my Beloved Darling Mistress and
I want, no I crave your elation, expressed so clearly on your face.
You need it to hurt.
You need my groans. Ouches my please no’s as much as I need the release of hurts.
This kind of hurt sets me free. Just as much as it will make me struggle against tight bonds. I ask you please, tie me so hard it marks my skin. Take me into the dark shitty places that make me warm and fuzzy. So I am focused in meeting and dealing with this pain so I can breath through the strikes and find some mental release from the noises in my head.
Oh I want that fuzzy subspace were I can take more and more until it no longer matters what you do to me I just feel it, and absorb it. I welcome the intense pain the controlled violence wrought upon me.
I long for the warm glow as the endorphins give their rush flooding into my system.
This kind of impact from your blows will leave me shaking barely able to stand.
So it borders between good and bad pain not overwhelming but leaves me tittering in a kind of blackness of want.
It’s the kind I can take, I want you my Darling Mistress to read the struggle in my eyes,
I want you to see the beauty in this man suffering in sheer desperation.
I like to think of you moist aroused from the look of desperation.
You know I love the emotional hit I get from feeling slightly ashamed that I man would submit to you a female. It goes against all that remains in societies Paternalism.
But it’s more than that I love to be bound vulnerable, but also comforted and safe.
It’s a moment, so complex and rich and colorful that the pain becomes something else for us both. It’s a way of creating a physically challenging moment that I need your guidance to get through it and your comfort afterwards to positively process it.
I want you to see me suffer, to wallow in the intensity of it all and as I groan out in pain, I want it to be a moment that brings us closer together more importantly.
Because when you tear someone down to their naked truth, it’s impossible not to melt into them when their need for you is something real and genuine.
We both need it to hurt, we both have good reasons for that need, love, desire passion.