I know I’m not like the others
I need to feel overcome by you.
I need to feel your power.
Your strong resolution
The absolutely godlike proportion
Of your will.
It’s only then I can feel loved.
I need to lose my will,
To experience your strong hand
To know it has been taken from me.
To have my willful brat heart taken.
Ripped from my chest.
I need to be hurt
Then I feel safe
Than I am secure in your love.
Impose your will
Upon this my worthless hide
I know then I am worth it.
I need you to use me
For your pleasure.
At your hands let me feel the intoxicating pleasure-pain
Only you my pain giver can deliver.
With every grip and blow
Every bite of the cane.
I’m reminded of why I am here for you,
A kind of subservient muse,
To your will.
Allow me to practice my
Ability,
The gift of subjugation
My mind,
My will,
My beating heart.
Show me
And those that witness my beatings.
That I have the ability
To allow myself to be subdued.
By the magnitude of your
Mind.
And by your body.
Leave me with the tender reminders
Of your brutal touch
In shades of purple, violet and blue
Turn my tender meat
To the colours of your tattoo.
Beat my till I laugh and sob.
Those emotions I hold
For such a moment as this.
They have been locked away
For only you can release.
With every tear
I become less burdened.
I give my tears freely
To you in an act of surrender.
Trust me when I say to you
That my ache of longing outweighs
The ache of your touch.
Release the beast with in you,
In your controlled Dominion,
Unleash her upon me.
Embrace the beast within you,
You my pillar I kneel before.
I beg for this.
I thank you for this.
I honour you for this.
I worship you for this.
slave alone exists for this.